I Can't Yet

    I know I promised to not bother him anymore; to not care for him anymore; to not ask for any more than what we have now; to not love him more than I love him now - but I can NOT. I just can't yet. People say he's not worthy of all these from me and my brain agrees with them. But my heart is stubborn; stupidly stubborn. It just doesn't want to stop waiting, caring, and  loving him.

    I hope one day, it's going to be easy for me to just stop all these, because I have to; because it is necessary; because my heart needs it. But for now, not yet.

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