"Bubble"

God knows how much I want to let this out, but I'm trying my best not to, for my sake and his'.

I've always wanted to give up and scream it at his face, "What do you really want from me? why don't you say a word? You once said you've got something for me, but why did it change? I'm not playing games on you, so I hope you don't play with me too." 

It is really hard to - I don't want to say FALL IN LOVE - "feel" something very awkwardly special for someone who does not even say what he feels about you. I have  been very stupid to let him in me and let him take over every part of me piece by piece. I'm in a maze right now, not knowing which way to go to escape this mind-wrecking, a heart-tearing dilemma. The memories we shared is like a shattered glass that I pick up out of insanity and wound myself without minding it. This feeling I'm feeling for him right now is overly excruciatingly painful that I want to bathe myself clean and then drown in the sea of nothingness and just... disappear.

#bubble